Sunday, June 15, 2014

Playing Cards, Muttering and Worrying



If you have a few basic premises to work on, like:


  • Everything that happens has a reason to happen.
  • Everything that you do is in line with your own life plan.
  • And underneath everything that you do no matter how inconsequential it seems, no matter how trivial it is, has at its core your own firmly held presuppositions about life as you know it.


Then, playing and losing game after game of solitaire is, in the larger scheme of things, part of your own life lesson.

Like, how you feel after you have lost your 7,000th game compared to how you felt when you lost your 125th game.

I went through all sorts of feelings as I continued to lose game after game while, according to the statistics someone thoughtfully and without malice placed gently on the internet, found myself firmly entrenched in that subset of players who play so far below average they don’t even bear mentioning. 

I went through a period of time when competitiveness was the thought foremost in my mind.

I then slowly became interested in how much I was losing and how little I was winning to where, and I still do this now, when I won a game I would play the same game over and over to increase my percentage of games won. 

There came a day when I wasn’t all that interested in how often I won and I began to take an interest in the strategy of the game.  I included in this all the times I would play a winning game over and over again to see how many different endings it could have and still be a winning game. 

And, finally, there came a day when I really didn’t care whether I won or lost the game.  It was the game itself, it was my intense concentration, it was the speed I could think and respond to the cards dealt. 

I suppose as time goes on I will likely move through other emotions as I play that mighty game of Aces and Kings, and very likely continue to lose.

But, lately I have been thinking about my card games as the things that people do with their lives.  The cards they have been dealt and what they make of them.

Consider people who are born with or become disabled and how they fashion their lives.  You with most of your senses, what would you do if you began losing your sight?  Or, if you couldn’t hear anymore.  Would  you go around bumping into things and quacking like a duck, “What?  What?  What?” 

And, then, maybe that’s what you’re supposed to do.  A time of panic as you try to go through a grieving process that your life as you knew it is over, to a time where you begin to embrace life again and learn to adjust and lean upon your remaining senses.

I’m just getting old.  I haven’t lost my senses, though I have ringing in my ears all the time, have experienced some loss of hearing and my eyesight is fading.  I hurt most of the time.  I can be a real crabby apple sometimes.

When I was growing up people kept saying to me that I was weird.  I never knew why they said that.  It wasn’t just the same group of people either.  I was an Army Brat and we moved around a lot.  I went to 13 different schools in 12 years.  So, these were people who had never met each other and they all said I was weird. 

There was one nice comment from Taylor, a very tall boy, older than me with Scandinavian blond hair. We went to high school at St. Maria Goretti in Hagerstown, Maryland.  He and I were sitting behind the school in the smoking area one quiet afternoon back in 1970 or so.  He said to me that I saw things most other people didn’t see.  So, it wasn’t necessarily that I was flat out weird, but more a comment that was either truthful in nature or he was just trying to chat me up.  Personally, I think he was making an observation because we never did go out together though he was a very polite and nice boy. 

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Friday, May 02, 2014

Over and Over Again



If you figure that commercials and advertisements are always successful because constantly presenting an idea over and over again will eventually make that idea or product familiar to a person it just doesn’t hurt to say the same thing over and over again.

I think most folks tend to stick with what they know.  Younger folks tend to try new things.  If you are a company and are concerned about who is going to buy your product one of the things you’re going to think about is who has money to spend on it.  Then, your campaign is planned along those lines; you’re going to go after a specific age group with money to spend. 

So, you make a television commercial.  Or, you target all sorts of advertising in addition to television, like printed ads, bloggers you pay to write about your stuff and ads on the internet.

I found an interesting article on the internet that suggested a person needs to see an advertisement 3, 7 or 20 times before they buy the product.  I am inclined to think 20 times is what it would take.  From the article came this wonderful list purported to come from Thomas Smith in 1885:


The first time people look at any given ad, they don’t even see it.
The second time, they don’t notice it.
The third time, they are aware that it is there.
The fourth time, they have a fleeting sense that they’ve seen it somewhere before.
The fifth time, they actually read the ad.
The sixth time they thumb their nose at it.
The seventh time, they start to get a little irritated with it.
The eighth time, they start to think, “Here’s that confounded ad again.”
The ninth time, they start to wonder if they’re missing out on something.
The tenth time, they ask their friends and neighbors if they’ve tried it.
The eleventh time, they wonder how the company is paying for all these ads.
The twelfth time, they start to think that it must be a good product.
The thirteenth time, they start to feel the product has value.
The fourteenth time, they start to remember wanting a product exactly like this for a long time.
The fifteenth time, they start to year for it because they can’t afford to buy it.
The sixteenth time, they accept the fact that they will buy it sometime in the future.
The seventeenth time, they make a note to buy the product.
The eighteenth time, they curse their poverty for not allowing them to buy this terrific product.
The nineteenth time, they count their money very carefully.
The twentieth time prospects see the ad, they buy what is offering.
I also base my experience on the emails and comments I get from my websites and blogs.  The questions people ask are very often the same or variations; the same ones I asked before I began to channel.

Some of the questions people ask me: 

What is it like when a person dies?
Where do they go?
Can I ever talk to my Spirit Guide?
What does Spirit sound like?
Why doesn’t Spirit talk to me?
I think an evil entity has attached itself to me.  What do I do?
How do you tell if a psychic is real or not?
Is my loved one at peace?
I keep having dreams of my loved one.  Is there something they want me to do?
Does God really exist?
When I pray does anybody actually listen to my prayers?

There are more.  I intend to address these and others in future blogs. 


Thursday, March 20, 2014

Darn

While I'm walking to and from work I like to say the Hail Mary prayer.  Sometimes it calms me down.  A few days ago as I was walking to work I began to think my recitation of the prayer had moved toward a rote manner and I thought I wasn't really putting enough of the right effort into the prayer.

In the world of channeling many times I take it for granted all the Folk in Spirit I talk to.  In any case, Mary said to me, "Why don't we just talk and have a conversation?"  That one really surprised me.  I was a little shy.  I usually am, but slowly warmed up to the idea of talking with her.  We didn't say a whole lot that day.  I just marveled that she'd offered to talk to me.

It was the next morning as I was getting out of the shower that I stubbed my toe or stumbled into something.  I can't even remember what I did.  But, I did say, "Jesus!"  Then, I remembered Mary might be nearby.  I was quiet for a few seconds and then asked her, "What did you used to say?"  She said, "Zeus".




Saturday, February 22, 2014

Finding a Mug



People think that when you channel with spirit that a person would only do so when there was something of real importance to talk about.  As if you would only do so with the big questions like: “Is there life after death?” or, “Is it painful to die?”

I channel all the time.  I think it helps to make me a better channel.  Anyway, I was at the White Elephant Sale yesterday in Oakland in the kitchen wares section.  In years past I’d picked up interesting coffee mugs, but I was going to steer past that section this time as our cupboard is full to overflowing with mugs.  In fact, I’d gotten rid of several of them a few months ago. 

So, I’m wandering around and the guides urged me toward the coffee cups.  I objected noting the full cupboard of cups at home.  Nope….another urging toward the coffee cups.  Okay, I’m game.  I went and poked around a little.  Then, getting into the browsing I decided that having a coffee mug with a thin lip to it was a worthwhile search.  I found one but it was on a pedestal and it wasn’t as large as my other mugs.  When I want a cup of coffee I want a CUP of coffee. 
I had pretty much looked at all the cups and decided I wasn’t going to find anything and I get another, “Wait, keep looking.” from the guides.  So, I kept looking and found a mug with cherubim on it.  I said, “Is this what you wanted me to find?”  It was funny.


Saturday, November 30, 2013

Talking to your Spirit Guide Is Not as Simple as Picking up the Phone

Talking to Spirit is not always as simple as talking to your neighbor, your co-worker or somebody at the store.

We are accustomed to engaging each other in conversation.  There is an exchange of information.  It is like dancing.  Back and Forth.  We take turns.  Whether it is important or not you get your message across.  Verbally.  I can hear it with my ears. 

You know how it goes:

"Hi."
"Hello."
"What have you been up to?"
"Nothing much.  How about you?"
"Well, I've got a touch of the bum knee today.  Figure rain must be coming on." 
"Yeah, it was on the news today.  Storm front moving in fast."

Because we all have a different sort of connection to Spirit that conversation could turn out many different ways.

Here is one scenario:

You are in a big fat hurry to get out the door.  There wasn't much hot water left for you to take a decent shower this morning and that put you in a bad mood.  To top it off the half and half you poured in your coffee had these funky globs in it.  You didn't have time to make another cup so you fished them out with your spoon.  The carton didn't smell, so you figured it would be okay and not make you sick.  Once you got your socks on you realized you stepped on a piece of kitty litter and you had to take your socks off to get it off your foot.  Like I said, the whole morning is teetering on this edge of the beginning of a really rotten day.

Regardless of all this crap going on you still need to get a move on.  As you move toward the front door you notice your umbrella propped up in the corner.  You actually pause.  And, then you move on, go to work or school or wherever you were heading in such a hurry.  About mid-afternoon the clouds roll in and by the time you are ready to come home it is raining buckets.  You get wet and continue the mouldering mood that started when you got up that morning.

You weren't listening to your intuition.  You also have a prime opportunity to sort out what is bothering you psychologically.  But, to continue the lesson you really were not listening to Spirit talk to you.  What Spirit had to say was said when you had that pause and looked good and hard at your umbrella.  The message was not said in actual words.  It was said with an intuitive feeling.

How about if your communication with Spirit tends to happen with signs?  What if you have already figured out that good things tend to happen when you see a sparrow?  There isn't anybody who made a rule that said you are moving with the flow when you see birds.  It's just something that sort of happens around you.  When you speak of it to others they look at you like you've been drinking too much.  But you know in your heart that is a signal to you that you are on the right path and that Spirit is taking an active interest in you and your affairs.   Somebody else might say you are somehow twisting things so that you have already decided to be in a good mood when you see a bird and that it is a self fulling prophecy.  Who cares?  For years I would see the number 222.  It happened when I broke through to Spirit in an obvious way.  For me seeing the number 222 was a sign to me that I was on the right track.

We all have different levels of communicating with each other.  You can speak.  You can write notes.  You can communicate with facial expressions.  Lots of way to get your meaning across to somebody else.

Many times people don't realize that they are in actual communication with Spirit when the talking involves something as simple as an intuitive feeling or a sign.

Friday, February 15, 2013

Talking to Spirit - Using a Talking Board or Ouija Board


I think it is interesting that we tend to complicate things more than they need to be.  There might be a simple explanation which is more complimentary that reads, “Oh, the exquisiteness of it demands attention to detail and so the beauty is drawn forth.”  Right.  Or, I’m succumbing to my neurosis and am just worrying the whole thing to death. 

There is the idea that I am a Sage in the Michael teachings and like to hear myself talk which might also account for some of it.

Anyway, it occurred to me that in learning how to channel sometimes students make the whole process a lot more complicated than it needs to be.  To that end, you do NOT need to purchase a Ouijia Board to use as a communication device with Spirit.  You can make your own.  Use a piece of paper.  Write the alphabet on it.  Put some pictures in.  Put a, “Yes” and a “No” on the paper.  Done. 

Use a stone, or a washer, or something small as your pointing object.  If you want to get really simple just use your finger.  But, that might come under the heading of more advanced technique whereby you also have accepted that Spirit and you are sharing your body.  Sometimes people have a difficult time getting to that level of sharing.  Sort of like having absolutely no more privacy and issues arise because of that.  What is interesting is that to use a talking board at all requires that the above condition is already met even if you don’t consciously recognize it.  If all that sounds really strange use a washer from your tool box.

Some basic guidelines on talking to Spirit with a talking board:
  1. Make a point to plan on talking to your Guide who is kind, nice and won’t jerk you around.
  2. You can save talking to your great-great-grand-mother for a year from now.  That includes Elvis, George Washington, Shakespeare and other famous personalities.  Save them for when you are well grounded and sensible about use of a talking board. 
  3. Use your common sense.  Nobody is going to give you winning lottery numbers.
  4. Answers to questions like, “Who am I going to marry? And When am I going to die?” are suspect and should not be trusted.
Bear in mind that a talking board is not a toy.  What you are doing is making a connection to Spirit the same as if you were using a deck of Tarot cards, using a pendulum or channeling.

Saturday, February 02, 2013

Watch this video.  This is what I've been talking about.  Alan Watts

 

Saturday, December 29, 2012

So, How Have You Been?

It is a time for reflection and consideration of high and low points from the past year.  I'd have to reach back a couple of years to bring anybody up to speed on this blog.  All I can say is I spent a couple of years on Prozac.  In September I stopped taking it.  I realized that my life experiences had sort of flattened out.  I had lost the creative fire in my belly.  At 57 years old I decided it was time to get busy again.

So, following my doctor's advice I slowly weaned myself off of Prozac.  Yikes.  Double yikes.  I didn't realize there were actually withdrawal symptoms.  Any advice on the subject I would give is if you have a choice whether to start taking Prozac or not please seriously consider emotional healing via a therapist before you go the chemical route. 

Taking Prozac did help me deal with tremendous stress at work and allowed me to act in a professional manner but if I had it to do again?  I'd rip someone's head off first.  Nice talk from a supposedly spiritually conscious individual.  Anyway, I am working through the rough spots with my therapist. 

Want to hear a channeling funny?  One of the things I was working on was my temper.   At work I could go from 5 miles an hour to 150 miles an hour in the blink of an eye.  The result was I acted like a horse's patoot.  So, the goal was to deal with it. 

My therapist directed me to come up with a substitute of counting to 10; something I could memorize and say to myself when things got tough.  I considered all sorts of things and never really settled on anything.  Nothing anybody else wrote, however inspirational, suited me.  Nor did anything I could write.  Finally, I settled on saying a prayer from my childhood, a Hail Mary.  Even that wasn't good because I was seething while I was saying it and I just didn't feel right about it. 

So, there I was with nothing to fill in the space of 10 seconds that would help me throttle down.  Time passed and it finally all caught up with me when something or somebody pushed my button and I was poised to go off like a rocket.  In that millisecond one of the guides shouted out into the room, "Jesus Loves You".  It caught me by surprise and had the intended effect of hauling me back to earth pretty darn quick.  It was also interesting because the guides just don't do that with me.  Our "rules" are that no folk in spirit blurt anything out that I haven't approved.  But, they helped me that morning and for that I am grateful.

Now, being as how this is a space to help people to channel we can turn that story into a conversation about rules that you use when you are channeling.

The only rules you need follow are the ones you make up.  I give guidelines as far as things you can do to get you to the point where you are channeling, but it really boils down to what you feel comfortable with.

It's the same way you conduct your own life.  You've got rules that you follow.  When you are a kid you are following your parent's and teacher's rules.  When you grow up you are following society's rules and those that you have considered to be important to furthering your own way of life.

Same thing with channeling.  You are not a leaf to be blown about in a windstorm.  So, you make some rules, say of decorum.  Channeling out loud.  Well, I like to do that if nobody is around.  When you do it with others nearby sometimes they think you are talking to them.  Or, like what happened to me, they think there is somebody else in the room with you.  My own personal style is to have a sort of accent when Seth or other folk in spirit talk.  Sort of like Count Dracula from Transylvania.  I'll have to post a video so you can see what I'm talking about.  But, it was that one time that started my own personal "rule" of nobody in spirit talking through me unless I deem the coast clear. 

Have a Happy New Year and I hope to be here more often in the coming days.

Monday, April 02, 2012

Something That Moved Me

I just watched a moving video of the San Francisco Men's Gay Chorus on YouTube.  I realize it doesn't have anything to do with channeling, but it touched me and I wanted to share it with you.


 

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Can I interest you in a game of cards?

People talk about spirituality a lot.  During the course of my life I’ve moved through what might seem to be steps or stages.  I think a sort of contemplation at times, or even a regular contemplation might be of benefit.

It was through a game of solitaire that my own thoughts veered off into the ether to come back to me as a sort of homely aha.


The game of solitaire I play is called, “Aces and Kings”.  You’ve got 2 decks.  On the left hand side you build upward from Aces to Kings.  On the right side you build down from Kings to Aces.  You’ve got a stack of overturned cards at the lower left that move face up into 4 empty spaces.  You can play these whenever you want.  You can turn over cards whenever you want until they are gone.  And, you can choose from a number of cards, two piles of them at the top of the screen.  The goal is to move all the cards into their proper piles.  This is a computer game, though I’m sure you could play it with regular cards.

In any case, I’ve been playing this game for a long time.  In fact I’ve played 5,145 games and won 100 of them.  I do lose a lot.

The feelings that emerge for me are varied and from the beginning I found some sort of strange satisfaction playing a game I mostly never won.  It’s not a difficult game to play but there seem to be ways that you can approach the game that will either determine how far into the game you can get before you can’t go anymore and it is those approaches that intrigued me.  It’s also the luck of the cards that is there too.

It’s like driving.  If something catches your eye at the side of the road you do need to be aware that the normal tendency is to drive towards it.

So, I took that “rule” and have applied it to the game.  I try to build up one side over the other.  The cards, by default, will build automatically on the left side, the side from Aces up to Kings, but you can if you want to make choices during the course of the game that will build up the other side first.  My own tendency is to build up the left side and get hung up with most of the right side not built up.

The first feeling I ever felt with this game was frustration at how many times I lost.  It was important to me to win the game.  The picky Virgo in me coupled with a wide streak of stubbornness from the Michael Teachings is what has probably driven my fascination with this game.

But, as time has gone on my feelings towards the game have moved slightly from a win/lose proposition to an enjoyment of each move during the course of each game.  The energy attached to winning and losing is easing and a noticing of what I am doing or how the cards are falling is an underlying attention.  It was when I thought you could live your life that way, with an enjoyment of the present that what is coming from the future whether good or bad is not as critical.

I thought of the shorter games, the ones I lose and the games that I can drag out towards a higher score like the lives people live.  Like not everybody wins big.  I asked myself what is winning big?  Winning big could be being a movie star, a person of importance in government, a rich person, someone who can stand out and be noticed above the shoulders of all the people in a crowd.  Face it, with all the people who live on our Earth exactly how many are going to stand out?  Not many.  What does that mean for the rest of us who live lives centered on home, on family, on friends, on work?  Does that mean those lives are any less important?  Of course not.

Okay, so then why was I so obsessed with winning?  The conscious decision made to not have winning be so important and the resultant emotions that accompany being a loser also not be so important was interesting.

So, how does this apply to spirituality?  I’m not sure other than you can think all of your life is you on your own road of self discovery and as you can ease into moments of contemplation you might be able to feel more at ease, more balanced and less self absorbed to reach out to other people. 

It’s really all mixed up.  I am really rambling with this but somehow it feels like I am kneading dough.  There is something of worth in these thoughts.  I am peering toward something I cannot see but that I think is important.  In the end my goals will likely change. 

Thinking about how you play a game, how you approach life, what you do when there are stresses that seem unrelenting, how health good and bad affects you and how sometimes  things sort of well up inside you and need the light of day to be.

It has been a long time since I have written in any of my blogs.  I appologize for the meandering.
 

Sunday, July 10, 2011

What Do You Do When Spirit Stops Talking?

This is an email I got yesterday.


Hi. I’ve been speaking to my nana in the spirit world and lately I’ve been getting a feeling I should do a tarot card reading for myself. So I did. It wasn’t a good reading all. The bad cards came out, so the same night I asked my spirit guide to bring my nana through. She didn’t come which she always has done in the past.


Something felt really wrong that she didn’t answer me and a few days later she still won’t come through. I’m just wondering why they don’t come through. I also feel as though they are trying to prepare me for something distressing to happen. Is that why she won’t speak to me at the moment?
Hello,

You are worrying too much. That’s all. When you make contact with Spirit in the way that you have been accustomed to this is not the way it will always be. You will, as a sensitive, evolve and develop. Not to worry about it.

So, what is going on with you? Did you realize that you are the one who determines what spirit is going to sound like? We did an experiment once with 4 people I was coaching on learning to channel. The game was going to be that we would listen to one guide. The same guide. And, that guide would channel about what was going on in our future. We were all set to get really good information. What came through was surprising and not what we expected to hear.

Bear in mind that I live near San Francisco. We get a lot of earthquakes and everybody has been warned for years that the BIG one is coming.

So, one person channeled that we should all get out of Dodge and move as quickly as possible. We should move to Colorado because that was going to be the new west coast in the United States when the present western part of the country was going to sink and drop off the map.

Another person channeled that if our higher self determined that our life lesson was going to be that we needed to be involved in a big earthquake, then that was where we were going to be. Why there? Who knows? Maybe we are supposed to help people.

Two very different channelings, yet from the same guide and through two different people speaking on the same subject.

That was when I realized that it is the person who determines what kind of channeling comes through; whether it is going to be scary or not.

Okay, so what do you do if you feel you don’t have any control over the channeling coming out of your mouth?

You have lots of control. It’s all about choices. For one thing with alarming or distressing messages coming through you can take a step back from it and know the channeling you are doing is based in fearfulness.

How to get over fear? Grow yourself. A kid is afraid of nothing. They learn fear as they grow. Unlearn it. Are you afraid of the first raindrop? Run for shelter so you don’t get wet and melt? Try this. Next time it rains go outside without a coat and without an umbrella and get wet. I know that is simple, but for me, when I did it, it was a revelation and it was one of the first steps I took outside of my comfort zone.

Allow the fearlessness to come gradually to you. Journal. Pour out your thoughts on paper. The very act of expressing yourself on paper is therapeutic.

Begin to gradually change your world views. Are you as well balanced mentally as you can be? If you move on the assumption that everybody, the world over, has some sort of neurosis going on, figure that you must have one too. You always figured that you were perfectly okay. Figure now that you are not. Number one rule is that channeling is distorted by how well balanced you are mentally, or at least that you are making the attempt to be well balanced. So, the important point here is that you make a promise to yourself that you will make the attempt to investigate some aspect of yourself that might need a little healing. I don’t know what it is. You have to discover that one on your own. Remember, that your world view, your take on reality needs to shift a little bit in order for you to spot something in your makeup that could use some work. It is a process of being more sensitive to what your needs are.

The thing with healing emotionally and figuring out what is going on with you is to assume first of all that you are not a victim. If you go around saying, “If this had not happened then everything would be different for me.” Or “If they hadn’t done this I would not now be doing this.” This is the blame game and if you blame others for your problems then this is something you can look at. Here’s a hint. Do you ever get really angry about things? Focus in on those times and see if you can’t figure something out about yourself.

My signal that I need to get quiet and do some inner work is when suddenly, out of nowhere, I am surrounded by drivers who can’t drive worth a poop. In front of me, behind me, coming at me from the side; the worst drivers you can imagine and I am attracting them like flies. Ahem. My own personal signal that there is something in my world that isn’t quite right. If I choose to ignore this it only gets worse.

This doesn’t mean that you are defective. It means that you, just like everybody else, has something to work on. That’s our opportunity here on Earth. Learn all you can.

One of the best things I ever did to help me shift my reality just that little bit that would allow me to channel was to read, “The Course in Miracles”. There is a section in it that has 365 lessons; one for each day of the year. Start on the first lesson and begin reading. These are short. They never go much more than one page.

Now, the cards. First time I ever read the Tarot for myself I got the 3 “bad” cards; the hanged man, the tower and the devil. The hair stood up on the back of my neck. I shuffled the deck and drew again. Same three cards. Yikes. I shuffled and drew again. Same again. The odds of that happening were incredible. So, since I didn’t know much more about those cards than they were “bad” I figured I would read the meanings. Your world turns upside down, things are going to change, you have the opportunity for great changes in your life.

I finally realized that Spirit was coming through the cards and since I already held a bunch of “beliefs” about ESP and psychic things I was frightened. It took years for me to unlearn my fears, to realize that Spirit had just stepped in to communicate with me via the cards and that was one of the first steps I was taking to learn how to channel.

Your sensitivity to the other side is changing. Take a hint and study more. There isn’t one perfect and right way to lean as far as disciplines go. Lean the way you are drawn. You’re going to learn something from all of your teachers. There is a saying, “When the student is ready the teacher will appear.” So, don’t fret. You’re doing fine.

There is nothing to fear and your Nana and your guide are not preparing you for something bad to happen. When it all settles down again you’ll be able to talk to Folk in Spirit again and I’ll bet you will be a much happier person. It’s all about growing.

Best of luck to you and thank you for writing.

Pauline